Ages one and up

I tried to be kind
I tried to be good
I tried to give you all that I could

I fought and I cried
I begged and I pleaded
but what I could give,
was less than you needed

You littered your legs
with valleys and trenches
you covered it up with
camouflage and with fences

There comes a time
when the pen's out of ink
and all you can see is your
blood covered sink

And so you sink.
Lower and lower.
Returning to carving.
Over and over.

I gave you all that I could
which sure wasn't much
but just like my foot,
I slipped off the clutch

Which killed it fast
but I killed you slow
I'd prefer the shit car
That's the way to go

Fast and easy, no more pain
you want to give in,
but you have to refrain

For Hell cannot win when
Heaven's the goal
you have to push back
when push starts to pull

"One year sober" chants in your mind
each morning you're up
and back to the grind

Counting the seconds
to the next nap
cause at least when you sleep
Hell can't attack

"Take this one, take that one.
Something will work!"
You think you know
cause it says 'Doc' on your shirt?

Well you don't, I'm sorry to say
you haven't been here before
you've never felt this way

Don't say, "Some have it worse,
you should be happy!"
If I could, don't you think
I'd change what's inside me?

You keep walking
cause no one else gets it
you see the mold
but you'll never fit it

So every day you slap on that smile
you go to war
to convince yourself you're worth while

Maybe one day
it'll all be different
but to pretend nothing's wrong
now that's just plain ignorant

Although it's not easy
my friends, don't give in
hold on to hope, hope you can win

This disease may have you bound tight
but remember Christ is your friend
He is the light

He's felt your aches, your pains
your tears and your fears
when it's too much for you
offer it up in your prayers

"Don't give up on me, buddy
there's so much in store
I promise this isn't forever
I promise there's more."